CBD Oil and More

I bought this one.....

 Good Morning,
 I hope that everyone is doing well. I am ok. I had a rough night last night. My legs twitched and caused some aggravation but I finally fell into a semi restful sleep.

 Well I just went out to the kitchen to get the coffee creamer and it is just pouring rain.
 My grandson was standing with his back facing our parking lot with his umbrella. The water was streaming off the back of the umbrella. I ran for my camera but the moment was lost, I am never prepared I suppose.

 My kids Laurie and David bought a really nice van yesterday so that they can head back west. I don't think that they are going back to California tho. They have been talking about New Mexico. Laurie has a great job opportunity that she is really wanting to take.
 It is going to be hard on me to see them leave but at the same time our home is just really to small for 9 people and 1 bathroom. Sleeping on the sofa, pallets and a bed and box spring in the living room. 
 We have done the best we can as a family and to see 6 of our family leaving is really bittersweet.

 So when I came home from the hospital I was trying to organize my medication, my new medication and also trying to arrange my meds in my daily pill box.
 Somehow I threw away my pain meds. We have looked everywhere but they are gone and we can only assume that they were accidently thrown away.
 I have been in severe pain so yesterday I had Karyn take me to the CBD store right up the road.
I bought a starter pack with 5 pre-rolled joints... )Talk about a flash of my past) lol.
 I was able to build my own pack so I got 2 of the white CBD which is great for chronic pain and it inhibits the growth of tumors.

Here we have a chocolate bar that Karyn bought me along with some honey sticks and some taffy. I dont have a pic of the taffy but here is one of the honey sticks for my tea or biscuit. I can buy in different CBD strength.

 Karyn bought me the Colorado Hemp Ginger soothe. She took the lemon.

 I am having problems typing so I will just have to use it as the way that it is typing...

They have so much to offer. Even for our fur babies. The prices are a little high but if we sign up for their rewards program that helps and also they have a great website. 

 This store was created by 3 sisters and they are really helpful in the ability to tell you how their products work and it is all LEGAL. 

Texas is a Republican state and they will never make Marijuana legal here so being able to use the CBD oil and products is very helpful.

The name of the store is called...

ReStart.

 I have tried to add a link but so far I am having trouble. I will try once more.

Hi,

 This is a post that disappeared and thought was totally lost. 

I have been super busy with things, a couple of doctor appointments and Laurie and David and my grandkids left yesterday to go back out west but they are going to Arizona first and then probably back to San Diego area.

It was so hard to know that they were leaving but our house was just way to small and so now we have been trying to clean it from top to bottom.

 It is so strange to not hear the kids playing and the tv going and tons of dishes and laundry machine not running all day. 

 

 I had to go to the doctor yesterday and I said my "See You Later" with hugs and kisses. They were gone before we got back and that made it a little easier on me.

 Bedtime was harder because I didn't get the good night hugs and kisses and little Cathy wasn't sleeping with me or here for our morning coffee and hot chocolate. 

 But it was time for them to move on to their future. I am sorry it didn't work out here in Texas for them, but they really need to be able to find a good VA hospital for David and get their family settled and we needed our home back.

 Still it hurts. I will miss them.

 It is time for lunch and Jonathan and I are having grilled cheese sandwiches with tomato and basil soup.

 

 I will talk to you later.  I didn't mean to disappear but I am still trying to get my strength back. I just cannot believe how easily I get tired.

 Take care and I will see ya later... BB

I Don't Recognize Our Country Anymore

Allk We Have Left Is Hope.....

 It is Sunday Morning and I am at a loss for words.

What has happened to our country when the color of a persons skin can be so devalued as a human being?
 I understand standing up for our fellow man and woman. I understand the peaceful demonstrations.
 What I see now is not for George Floyd, Breonna Taylor or the man shot and killed by the son and father in Georgia and so many more.
 It is just violence that has been brewing for a long time and it never ends well. It has overflowed and has now I am not sure that it is even about George Floyd and the innocent men and women that have had their lives cut so short.
 Police brutality is really just a cowardice act that the men in blue seem to think that it is just fine to kneel on a mans neck until he died.
 It is ok to get the wrong address and start shooting. They think that it is alright for a Florida man to kill a teen and get off! Where was the justice for that poor boy and so many others that have died?

 Forgive me for being emotional but I cannot help it. This is a short story of what happened to my son last night.
 Nathan gets off work on weekends usually at 10:00pm but sometimes it is later. He got off a little early last night and got home around 10:45 or so and he walked over to the convenience store across the street to get a two liter coke. As he was walking back a cop passed him and turned around and slowly got behind him and continued to follow him. 
 Nathan said that he wasn't Jaywalking as he was in the cross walk. 
 It was just that they were looking for some reason to stop him. They even pulled into our parking lot and sat there for at least 10 minutes until they backed up and left.
 Why?
 Is it a crime to walk to the store for a drink? 
 I was married to a Police Officer. He did not ever abuse his power and he was respected for the man that he was and still is. He is no longer on the police force but I remember him talking to me and how he would handle a call. So many times he would just let people go with a warning or sometimes nothing at all. I know that many people would call him for help even if he wasn't on duty.

 I don't drive anymore but every time we go anywhere (or use to, as I am still home) and a cop got behind us I would get this fear in my stomach for fear that they would pull us over and something would go wrong.
 It is just a scary thought and a scary feeling. I use to trust police officers but now I just have a deep suspicion and fear and I just do not understand a world where we have to be afraid not just for ourselves but for our spouses, children, parents, friends and even neighbors. 

 Ok enough of my rant for now. I will talk to all soon. My grandson wants some num nums... His way of saying Feed me Now lol.

 Have a great day and let us all pray for a resolution for everyone to come together.... BB

Love

 Good Morning,
 It is a little after 6:00 in the morning and I have been up since around 3:00 or 3:30.
 I went to sleep yesterday evening right after dinner. I slept deeply and only awoke to go to the bathroom and then back to bed. I did awake to Laurie and to Cathy checking on me but was able to roll right back to sleep.
 My doctors have urged me to sleep when I can. I am still not feeling my best and they tell me that my body needs the sleep.
 Of course I didn't rest much while in the hospital. Laurie said because of all the background noise but that wasn't all of it. I don't think that anyone rests when they are not at home in their own surroundings with our own background noises. I have to say that I really am glad to be home but I might have rushed it along more than I should have done.

 My friend Kay, I call her my adopted sister, she lost her brother Monday. I planted some wildflowers for him and lit a candle. I spent a great deal of time thinking of my own brother and I miss him so much. 
 I know that this is going to be hard for Kay. She sent me some texts recalling some wonderful memories and I wish that I felt like going to Tennessee to be with her. Of course she would not want me to travel right now but I told her I am with her in heart and spirit. 
 I wish I could think of something that would help her right now but I know that this is something that she is going to need from her family. The support and and love. She knows she has mine. 

 I am drinking my second cup of coffee this morning and after it is done I think that I will try and go back to sleep. 
 Laurie bought me some of my favorite, Southern Pecan and I have to admit that I am really enjoying it. 
 My granddaughter Cathy and I have tea every afternoon. She told me the other day that she enjoys this time with me and it makes my heart smile. 
 I want to make as many good memories with these kiddos that I can. 
They are a wonderful little family and I enjoy being able to be a part of their lives. I know that these moments are fleeting because they are going to be moving back to California I think in a few weeks.
 They have been looking at houses here but I told them the other day that if David cannot get the medical care he needs here then they should think of moving to where he can.

 When he was in Afghanistan a IED blew up and the man has shrapnel imbedded in different parts of his body. I talked him into going to my pain management team and I am seriously shocked that all they want to do is more surgery.
 The first few months that he was here they put him thru 16 different surgeries that have done nothing but make the pain worse. They cannot remove the shrapnel. It's located in parts of his back and close to his spine and he has discs that are collapsing and disintegrating. 
 I have seen him in so much pain that I just want to cry because I feel so helpless when he falls and cannot get up. Or the pain just riddles his body in spasms. 
 I really hate Texas Health Care that does not take care of our Veterans. 
 The Opioid addiction is just bullshit when it comes to people that need them. The Republicans have written these laws that make it impossible to receive pain medication in Texas. Basically you have to have Cancer in order to get any kind of treatment and even that has become limited. 
 No one wants to be stoned out of our mind. We just want to be able to control the hard pain and make it thru the day without being in so much pain that makes movement so hard that you cannot live a decent day.
 He had a fairly good day on Tuesday but paid for it the next day. I could see the pain etched into his face at every little movement. Laurie helped him with a shower and alternated heating pads and ice packs. I told him to call his doctor and he did but the doctor never called him back.

 Jonathan is getting ready to go to work and I need for him to go to the store for me so I will close for now and get on with my day. You all have a Blessed day and take care of yourself... All my love to you all. Hugs, BB

Tuesday's Here

Or is it Wednesday? Stormy couldn't care less either way it seems!

 Hi, I hope that everyone is doing well. I am still not up to myself just yet.
 I am drained and my doctor(s) say that I am still battling an illness and to expect to feel this way for possibly another month or even longer.

 I slept until 11:00 today. David made me a breakfast plate and I tried to eat. I really did but I only took a few bites because I have no appetite. 
 He made some scrambled eggs, biscuits, home fries and water melon. I didn't even eat but just a little of my watermelon and that is one of my favorite fruits but everything is tasteless. 

 I hope that everyone is doing well. It is always a good thing to see people out as long as they are social distancing and taking precautions. 
 Here in Texas the defiance is so misunderstood by me. Do these people intentionally want to catch this virus and possibly bring it home to their mother and father's, to their children? 
 I think that I may scream if I hear another person say that their rights under the constitution is being trampled on.
 Well while they want to go their merry way I do not want to come in contact with them and get sick with that virus. I don't want to be a statistic. 
 These same people would be moaning and groaning if no preventive measures were not in place. I guess nothing makes some people happy.

 I haven't been anywhere since I got out of the hospital. I don't plan on going anywhere anytime soon either. I don't have the strength to do much. I did my laundry on Monday because I am picky about how I do my things and that wore me out. But I completed it. I think that it was actually Sunday. All the days of the week is running together. 

 I will close for now. I need to lay down again so until later take care and take care of your loved ones. BB

I Am Home And Doing A Update!

This is an old scrap page that I made years ago.

Hello,
 This will be short as I am not feeling very well. I have a tele-visit today and my daughter is cleaning my room and it's been a mess for a while now but I have had a blood issue and so we have to sterilize my bedroom because of it. I had replaced my sensor to check my blood sugar and I am thinking I must have hit a capillary because there was a lot of blood so I am having to wash my bedding. Actually Laurie is cleaning. She will not let me lift a finger!

 My kidney is back to functioning normally. I am on heavy antibiotics right now. Preventative measures. I will try to work more on my blog later. Right now I am just very weak and tired.
 Take care and I will talk to you all later... BB

  Hello again,
 It is almost midnight and I had to take my meds and I took a promethazine before hand but I still couldn't keep it down. Now I am awake and I just cannot rest. Not real rest. I keep trying tho but I decided that I would just work on my blog since I left it very short this morning.

 Jonathan has been ordering food from a place called POTBELLY sandwich shop because he is usually working thru lunch and today he asked if I was hungry.
 No I wasn't but I knew that I had to eat something and he ordered me a soup that sounded intriguing called Chicken Pot Pie. I told him to just get me a small because I really don't have much of an appetite but ohhh that soup was very delicious. I couldn't eat it all but I was able to eat half of it. I would have liked to have saved it for later on but there wasn't that much left to save and it would probably have broken apart so I gave Dante the last of it. That little boy is not one to eat. He has always been a minimal eater and I was glad to share what was left of it with him.
 He came to me and said Na-Na that was the best soup ever. Can I please have more?... Awww he had the saddest look on his little face when I said "Baby that was all of it." But I promised him that I would buy him a bowl the next time Uncle Jon orders from there. 
I have food here but I haven't really felt like eating anything. It all sounds to heavy. Laurie has made me food but I just shake my head and she then lectures me about not being able to gain back my strength if I don't eat.
 David made the best biscuits and I did try to eat one for breakfast but I only ate a few bites of it. 

 It seems like I had so many other things to mention but my mind has basically just gone blank. I need to sit down and email a few friends and I am also needing to catch up on my blog reading.

 I am going to try and get some rest. Stay safe and if you are planning a Memorial Day weekend please remember to to be safe and please watch where you are stepping.

 Snakes are coming out and they are coming straight up into peoples yards. In Dallas a few days ago a 2 year old toddler was with his mom in their back yard and he was bitten by a rattle snake. It worries me that could happen to us since we don't live far from a creek and that since a lot of people have been home they are venturing farther out from their habitat. The news mentioned that State Parks have really seen a lot of them from Game Warden reports. 

 Okay so I will close for now... Stay safe and have a very enjoyable weekend... BB

Guess Where I AM????

My son Matthew Ordered me this T-Shirt for Mother's Day! I can say this is True. All my children love me!!!!

Hello,
 I am the guest of St. David's North Austin Medical Center. I have Sepsis. It looks like I will be here a few more days. I also have a bad UTI and kidney infection and I don't know how many antibiotics they have me on.
 I woke up at 3 this morning wanting coffee and I have the sweetest nurses and Techs. They brought me a cup and it's the only thing I have wanted since coming in Saturday night.
 They have an amazing room service menu. I have not wanted any food. I have had severe nausea and haven't kept anything down. The nurses have ordered me citrus popsicles, sugar free gelatins, juices and other liquids but i haven't had but enough to have my insulin. I did keep a couple of saltine crackers down and that was the turning point I think. I just want to go home but I have adamant orders from my kids to stay here for as long as they will have me.

Matthew called me yesterday and said his job gave him 2 days off to visit me. I hated to be the one to tell him but we cannot have visitors. Everyone is masked up wearing PPE's and minimal touching. They tested me for the Coronavirus. It was awful. The way that they have to insert it is not pleasant at all. I finally found something that I can Agree With Trump on.... UNPLEASANT....

My sister told me to have my doctors do a blood test from now on. I was negative and glad because I don't think I would repeat it given free will. A flu swab is uncomfortable. This goes further than uncomfortable. 

 I hate for this to be so short but it's hard typing with all of these Iv's in my hands and arms. Hopefully I will know how much longer I will be here today. I want to reschedule my tele visit with my kidney specialist. He is communicating with my specialists here from what I am told.

 Ok I will talk to you later. Hugs to all. Steve I hope you get some really nice Thunderstorms.... Miss Edna love you too. BB

Happy Saturday

Happy Saturday,

 I hope that all are doing well today. I guess that I am doing ok. I'm having some pain in my left side and am a bit worried that my left and only kidney is trying to give me some problems. 
 It is worrisome when I only have this kidney to work with. My doctor called me yesterday to tell me that my potassium is very high.
 The last time it got really high I was in Florida with Miss Edna. They really wanted me to go to the hospital for a treatment but I didn't go. 
 If I knew then what I know now I would have gone. It is really serious especially with only one kidney.
 My doctor told me that they had called me in a medication and Karyn went to pick it up for me. Apparently we only have one pharmacy in all of Austin that has this medication I needed. 
 I took it as soon as she walked in the door and it knocked me out and I slept deeply.
 I have to have a lab test on Monday to see if it has helped drop my potassium any. I cannot eat certain foods right now that might be high potassium like bananas, tomatoes, oranges etc. 
 Now I have another big problem. I can't pee. I have drank 6 bottles of water since I got up this morning and I cannot pee. I am going to have to call my doctor office at 4:00 pm when they open for extended hours and see what they want me to do. 
 I am almost positive that I have a kidney infection because of the pain in my left kidney and because of the fact I am drinking but can't pee. 
 I have not spoken of this very often but my family and myself know that I am headed for dialysis. My pain management doctor and I discussed it the other day. I have one of those telemedicine appointments scheduled for Monday with my Nephrologist and my pain medicine doctor told me that my kidney function has gone down. 
 I apologize for my blog post turning into a doctor's visit for you guys. It is just that this is serious and I am scared because there isn't much that I can do about it.
 If nothing else my wish for you is to please take care of the kidneys that you have. Be kind to them. Try to eat healthy and to exercise so you do not become a victim of diabetes which will take a toll on your body very fast.

 It's a bit cooler today but still muggy out. We had a very wicked thunderstorm during the night. We are also supposed to have a week of thunderstorms with high wind, hail, flash flooding and even a tornado is possible.
 I got up during the night and was overwhelmed by the wind and thunder and lightening. It was scary. I stayed awake listening for an alert and was really relieved that my phone never went off. I was ready to take shelter if I needed to. Thankfully I didn't have to. We have really bad thunderstorms here in Texas. We always need to be on guard.

 I know that this is short but I have some things I need to take care of in case my doctor wants me to come into the clinic. I hope and have crossed all my fingers and toes that I am not going to have to go to the hospital but I will not fight it if that is what they suggest I do because I know that the pain can lead to major issues with the kidney, especially if I have an infection. It will be better to get the antibiotics intravenously than to wait for an oral antibiotic. Wish me luck everyone... 
 Take care of yourselves and all my love to everyone... xxxx BB