Sunday, December 5, 2021

Welcome To A New Week


The Courtyard. A page made with a mixture of kits. 

Good Morning,

 It is now Monday morning and the start of another week. I am hoping that this week will not be as stressful as last week was for me and hopefully your new week will be a great one!

 The wind is blowing at a steady pace. I just came in from outside and while it really isn't chilly every once in a while the wind felt a little brisk but then it would die down and be a gentle warm breeze then become a little cooler when the wind picked back up. A sort of strange wind.

 We didn't make it to the grocery store today. Jonathan swept and mopped our entire apartment and he had me lay down and I fell into a very deep  sleep. He said that I slept for at least 4 hours and I didn't even wake up when he changed my insulin pump so I really was out of it. He made me wake up to eat dinner and I have been up ever since. I guess that my body needed the rest since I have not been resting well.

 Steve and Angelica I am still on the housing list here in Austin. I never removed myself but the wait is still long. My new advocate in Reno sent me a letter that said that while they were trying to help families secure housing that they were sorry but nothing was open to seniors at the moment but could help me secure doctor appointments and to contact her at blah blah blah.... 

 The one good thing is that Jonathan and I get along really well. He is a quiet man and he doesn't like a lot of drama. It was when he, Karyn, and Nathan and I were all together that things became hard. Also my daughter Laurie and her family lived with us and sometimes Matthew would come and stay a few days, but Jonathan and I have the same kind of homelife desires. We enjoy each others company and when we need to be alone we can be and it isn't a problem. 

 The problems arose when we had too many living under the same roof. Nathan and Karyn would have these huge conversations that were more like loud debates and they would agree but agree loudly which would get Jonathan upset and then if I had an opinion that was different than theirs then it usually led to an argument. 

 Jonathan and I don't argue thankfully. While we don't agree about everything, we don't let it get out of hand. Not like when all of us were living together. This was the reason that Jonathan wanted to live alone in the first place. He did tell me that this was a temporary living arrangement. He has to finish out this lease but he wants to find a place that is closer to his work and that is cheaper. A two bedroom or even a three bedroom where we can turn one room into a office study with a sofa and tv and no one can move in with us!

 He agrees that we did what we could to help everyone when we lived at the last place but he said that he just cannot do that kind of life again and I agree. It was so very stressful and then when the pandemic hit and we were all forced to really live together it was almost to a breaking point. 

 Our landlords at the other place wanted to gut the entire duplex and do some much needed improvements and every time that it came a big rain the place would flood but I loved that place and so did Jonathan. I missed it and I still do to a certain extent. Anyway he Karyn and Nathan could not find housing after the lease was up. They had to put everything into storage and lived in a weekly hotel for 3 weeks before they were able to get into this place. They took it because they were at the desperation point and running out of money. Jonathan told me that he depleted his savings with the deposits, the storage and the weekly even with Nathan and Karyn's help. 

 This is really a nice complex. It is called The Vinyard and it is actually outside of Austin. A town called Pflugerville. We are on the first floor and our patio door slides open to a fenced in back yard for Foxy. It has state of the art appliances except for the washer and dryer which Jonathan bought. He left the set that we had at the other house. He didn't have anyone other than Nathan to help him and they didn't have room in the storage for it. There wasn't really anything wrong with it and he hated leaving it but I get it. When you have to move, can't find a place to move to and no storage space for it, I would have left it behind as well.

 The complex is gated and it has a swimming pool, hot tub, indoor/outdoor showers, a really nice gazebo and down at our end we have a volley ball court with sand and indoor/outdoor showers and then we have a large covered area with a fireplace, grills, and an arrangement of chairs and sofas a large coffee table where people can sit and talk and grill something to eat and some kind of area that can be used to play some kind of game but I forgot what the name of the game that Karyn told me. I want to say Cricket but I am not sure.

 What are the drawbacks? Well it is apartment living so there are drawbacks. We can set our garbage out side of our door Sunday thru Saturday and they will pick it up. They furnish the garbage bins and we have a limit of 2 large bags. One in the bin and the other sitting beside the bin. How ever they seem to pick up the bags but not the ones inside the bin. So I was speaking to a man who lives here and he said to set the bag beside the bin and open the lid of the bin. They have some kind of rule that if the lid is closed they will not open it to take the bag of garbage out of it. Seriously??? It is just a little flip top. It isn't like they have to take it apart.

 People are supposed to clean up after their pets but they don't and it isn't enforced so I watch where I walk.  They have bags and trash bins to collect the animal waste but some people are just rude.

 The volley ball court is right up against our back yard. It has sand and along with the sand are sand fleas! Foxy is wise to them and she does not want to go out into the grass to potty because they attack her. We give her these pills that kill them but they have to bite her before they die and fall off. Jonathan's room is carpeted and he has been complaining that his spray is not helping to kill them. 

 And if it isn't fleas, they have sprinklers and they go off every other day right now for 15 minutes. Karyn said that we are the only apartment on this end that is a low point and it floods our yard. Not only with our water but the neighbors on each side of us.  Poor Foxy will not go out with the water standing ankle deep. The office is aware that we need some dirt brought in to fill in the low spots. 

 Other than that, it is really quiet and Jonathan said that he has called into the office a couple of times for a couple of issues and they come right away to fix what ever is wrong. Even the man I talked to last night said that the office is really on top of their game. 

 I woke up from my sleep so thirsty that I inhaled 3 bottles of water and I am still thirsty. Walmart did not have any cases of water yesterday so when I go to H.E.B. .... Today! I am going to get 2 cases if they have it lol. We are down to 6 bottles in the fridge so it is time to stock up.

 I hope that everyone has a great start to the new week and enjoy as much of it as you can. Good night everyone. BB

Saturday, December 4, 2021

Thank You Angelicastar

 This page was done using a kit by Kyra called All You Need Is Love! 

 Jonathan and I went to Walmart today and I bought myself a jacket. I have a really nice winter coat but it is too heavy right now for me to wear because our weather is in the 60 and 70's so I needed something that wasn't to heavy or bulky. I found a light weight black and white plaid jacket that is heavier than flannel but will be warm enough to keep the chill off. 

 Angelica thank you for your words of wisdom. To be honest I don't make enough money to live by myself. I wish that I did but I barely make ends meet. I contribute in other ways but when it comes right down to it my share is not all that much. 

 My son Jonathan told me tonight that he doesn't want me to pay for anything extra this month but I want to contribute to the household things that I use, like laundry soap cleaning supplies and things like that and he said that was fine. I will give him $300.00 a month for my share of the rent and $100.00 to go towards the electric bill. That will leave me enough for my food and personal things that I need. It is all that I can do.

 As for my son telling me in a nice way that I wasn't welcome any longer, I know that is true too. I have never been one to be disrespectful and I tried my best to help where I could. I always cleaned up after myself and enjoyed helping. I cleaned up after others as well and I never thought of it as a problem. I helped with the meals, the dishes, anything that would help Courtney at the end of a long work day. I also helped with the kids. I would watch them while she ran errands, went food shopping, and it gave her time to herself to just have a breather and a break. It is easier to go shopping alone and she could take her time. 

 I don't know what more that I could do for them and at least I offered. I cannot keep worrying about this and I do have to let it go, but I am they type of person that has zero control over my emotions. I try really hard not to cry but the tears find me anyway. I have always wore my heart on my sleeves and I get my feelings hurt so easily I and I hate that about myself. If there was anything about me that I could change it would be that.

 I am so very sorry that your family was mean to you Angelica. I  have dealt with mean people all my life and even family. I guess that is why I have always tried to be kind to everyone because I know what it feels like to have someone just be mean to me so I have never wanted to lower myself to that level or seek revenge or be mean back. It's just not in me to be spiteful or hateful to anyone but at the same time I don't want to be a push over and at times I had to stand up for myself at some point.

 I am tired tonight. It was a long day and I am ready to go to bed and sleep. I have taken my evening medications and I can feel them causing me to relax and drowsy so I think that I am going to call it a night. It is actually early morning. It's actually a little after 1:00am here and tomorrow I have another big day. Jon and I are going to H.E.B. so I can pick up a prescription and I am going to look at buying a coffee pot. I have a little one cup coffee maker but it is going out and I found a really nice one and the price is right so I want to go ahead and get it. I really love our H.E.B grocery store. I prefer it to Walmart any day.

 Have a wonderful Sunday everyone and take care... BB

Friday, December 3, 2021

Happy Holidays



 I know that it has been a minute since I have been here. It's just a been a hard time to do anything right now. I mean that it is always something and that something seems to snowball.

 I moved back to Texas. I am not really sure what happened. A lot of things and I am really upset about a lot of it. It seems to me that when Matt and Courtney married things started changing and not for the better. So I decided to remove myself from the equation and that didn't help matters any either.

 I am not really going into all of it because it would take me about a week to go into it all, but it is what it is and I really cannot change it at the time. 

 Matthew said that he called me on Thanksgiving and I forwarded his call. I didn't. I sent him a message saying that I looked at my phone and he had called me on the Tuesday before Thanksgiving but that it was strange, regardless I loved him and that I hoped he was doing well. I had asked him if he had left a message. 

 He replied that he didn't know he had to leave me a message to return a holiday call but that he would notate it in his phone notes and remember it for any future calls that he decided to make.

 I really want to say a few things to him but I won't due to the fact that my words will be twisted and turned around so I am not going to say anything to him but that doesn't mean that I don't want to.

 If he was trying to hurt me then he damn well succeeded in doing so but I knew something was up before I ever left Reno. I told them I wanted to come home for the holidays and then he proceeded to tell me that it would be a longer visit than I thought that it would be. So here I am.

It is rainy today. I have been enjoying the wet weather and the cooler temps. I always have enjoyed this time of year. It is almost another new year. I want to go Christmas shopping but I am really not sure if I am going to have the money or not. Moving has been expensive.

 I have to get off of here because I need a shower and get dressed for a couple of errands. Take care everyone... BB

Friday, October 15, 2021

Ouch That Hurt!


I really love these kind of clouds. this was taken mid day but that night we had a little rainfall but it evaporated really fast. Not this last little storm. It sprinkled really hard yesterday but it started raining really hard during the night and it brought in some cold weather. I love it after the hot summer that we have had.


 Well the cataract surgery is over and I won't say that it was painless because I actually woke up when they were putting the stent in my eye. It Hurt and then the drops that they prescribe (antibiotic) on a fresh incision BURNS like Hell. but thankfully that became less and less as the days passed.

 Steve yes they give you this plastic guard to wear at night that has tiny holes in it so that the eye can breath but it was bulky and uncomfortable to wear so I just used my regular cone shaped eye patch the first night and it was fine. More comfortable at least.

 We are enjoying the cooler weather and the rain. It has been so hot and dry and we are hoping that the rain finishes putting out the rest of the wildfires. I haven't actually heard the fire report but I really haven't been able to see with my eyes but the other day was really clear but yesterday was smokey until the clouds moved in.

 Matt got to come home night before last and he left yesterday morning but something was wrong with his truck and a light kept coming on so dispatch said to bring it back to Idaho so he came back home and left again this morning. I got up just before he left and had a chance to talk to him before he had to leave.  He and Courtney went out last night. At dinner last night I told Matt that she needed to get out of the house for a few hours and go and have fun so that is what he did. We were in bed when they got home and I am not sure what time that was but I am glad that they went out and she looks less stressed and more relaxed today.

 I tried to lay down for a little while but I kept getting interrupted so I just got up and forgot that I started my blog but that got interrupted as well.

 The most important thing happened I guess that it was 2 important things. Alex had a visit with his mom yesterday and he left his phone in his social workers car and she was supposed to have dropped it off at 9:00 this morning but there was a bad accident on her way and she called to say that she would be at least an hour late getting here. The kids were up by this time. Then around 11 or so she called Courtney to say that she had to turn around and go back to her office for a meeting and it would be 2:30 before she would be here and at 2:30 right on the dot she arrived. 

 The next thing that happened was important. My eye doctor's office called with a reminder of a follow up appointment for Tuesday October 12th and that date had me getting up from my almost nap and come and check my calendar and sure enough I had 2 appointments that day so it was easier to reschedule one and call my transportation office and change the time and destination and I just thought that it would be easier but actually it took a little longer than I had anticipated. There computer systems has been down for most of the day and they were just getting back online so by the time that was done it was too late for a nap so I just stayed up. 

 I am sorry that I have not  been online, I have been so sick with stomach issues. I am having horrible nausea. I have  not been feeling well for at least a week and it has not gotten any better. Poor Courtney has been burning the candle at both ends and I am so very sorry I have not been able to help her,

 We had another mandatory pest control spray and this is really getting to be too much to deal with. We had to pack up everything and move everything 3 feet from the wall yet again. With me throwing up and not able to help her as much she is she is so exhausted and then Matt came home last night so she had to go and get him. She left me sleeping and fixed dinner. She woke me up right before leaving and I was able to finish the meal but I went right back to bed as soon as soon as they got back.

 I am going to go ahead and finish this and hope to be back soon. I am still feeling weak and very weak. Hugs to all. BB

Sunday, October 3, 2021

Thankfully We Are Having Some Cooler Weather

My little pet bratty bird he is gathering his courage to come to me. He got spooked earlier by the neighbors next door. They were leaving and he refused to come closer so I went back into the house and got him a couple of Chex Mix cereal and sure enough he was in his usual spot and loudly letting me know that he was there lol.

 It is the eve of my cataract surgery and I am just a tad bit nervous. They are doing this procedure to help slow my glaucoma and that is they are putting a stent in my eye to help drain the fluid and they said that my eye is going to feel like there is something in it... (Ya Think)? But DO NOT RUB MY EYE!!!! and after the fun of having my right eye done tomorrow I get to do it all over again on October 28th.... Well at least I will have it done 2 days before Celeste's birthday.

 Gosh I can't believe that my little girl is going to be 7 years old! I remember the day that she was born. Her mama called me and said Hey turn your data on... that was back in the day when I was watching my data until we had our internet set up. We had just moved from Jon and Nathan's upstairs unit to the one downstairs. I had just had my right kidney removed so I didn't have to do anything with the move. Not even sit and unpack a box at the time. I knew she had my little girl and that is just what I said... "You had the baby!" She said "Turn on your data" and by that time I was opening my messages and seeing the first photo of our baby girl. She is still as gorgeous now as she was then.

 And this child is super super smart. She really blows me away with some of the things that she says to me. I didn't feel well the other day and I didn't work with her in her workbook but around 3 or so she asked if we could do some school work and I told her sure but I wasn't up to helping her with all of her school work and I told her that she had to pick the subject. She chose math and we did 5 pages front and back. She breezed right thru it so that is good. I will be glad when she is done with this workbook because I think that she needs to be challenged just a little bit more. 

 I am sorry that I am having to type and run but the kids are in the shower and getting ready for bed and I have to get all of my paperwork done and in my surgery packet and Courtney and I have to finish the last page together and after that I am going to go and lay down. I am not anticipating getting any sleep but I am going to try.

 Big hugs to all and I will talk/type with you guys later. Stay safe and stay well and just a reminder... Get Your Flu Shot! It is that time of year and it is a health reminder that we can all use. Also Ladies... If you haven't... Remember that October is Breast Cancer Awareness month so girls go get your mammograms and keep those Ta Ta's safe as well... So go and get the big SQUEEZ Please! Stay safe until next time... BB

Friday, September 24, 2021

Anna and Elsa from the movie Frozen. My granddaughter Celeste and her cousin Lili have several costume dresses and they can play dress up for hours and I have gotten the "Frozen" bug myself.

 Good Morning,

 I have been up for almost 45 minutes lol. I have a doctor appointment today. Just a check up and I have put it off twice now so I have to go to this one. They are going to send me to the lab for bloodwork before my cataract surgery on the 4th so I really need to get this one done and over with.

 Yep Edna, I knew that I had changed my text to blue. This one should be light blue. I am playing around with my fonts and colors.

 I read that we are going to have a big update but I can't find any more information on it, even when I try searching. It is odd, but I read the same thing about a huge update for the iPhone and now can't find any information on that. Just the release of the new iPhone 13. It is really ridiculous the amount of money that a phone costs, My first one cost $60.00 a month and I didn't have service half the time. I do have to say that I am spoiled with my iPhone. I doubt that I will ever go back to a android again unless I just have to. It's not heavy or bulky and I don't have to push a lot of buttons to get to where I need to go. I really like that!

 I never thought about my having a pet crow Steve. I like that idea. This morning he had a couple of pieces of frosted mini wheats and some grapes. I guess I spoil even the crows lol.

 No word on or from my advocate. I call every day so I figure that they will get tired of me calling eventually. I called the state of Nevada the other day to get the number for the medical handicapped office but it is the same number that I already have. I have to say that I am not impressed with Nevada's health care at all. I am having way too many problems with the doctors here and Karyn moved out of the apartment that she shared with Jonathan. She and her boyfriend found a house finally and Jonathan said if I wanted to that I could move back with him. There are a lot of pluses to that, Jonathan is quiet and laid back. It was Nathan and Jonathan together that made it hard because Nathan, I love him very much but Nathan is very hard to live with. There is a lot more to this story and when I have some extra time I will let you know what it is.

 But I have to get in the shower and get dressed so I can be ready to go to my appointment so I will talk to you all later... Take care everyone... BB


Thursday, September 23, 2021

A Beautiful Day

We are still having the smoke from the wildfires. This photo was taken just a couple of days ago.

 My Blog settings are not doing what I want them to do but that is nothing new. I hope that your all doing well. We are alright here and just wish that it would pour down raining for a couple of days to get rid of these wildfires. Just when they think that they have a handle on it, then another one is started from the wind sending ash and with the drought conditions the ground is so dry and the under brush just ignites and that is all that it takes to start the fires blazing once more. We just pray for rain. That is about the only thing that is going to help put them out. That and the strong winds need to calm down.

 So there isn't really any news to report. The weather is just gorgeous. The high today is 78 degrees and the low is 49 degrees so it is really nice. 

 On Monday I was outside with Matthew and he said Mom look over your shoulder. There was a crow inching his way over to me. I usually have some kind of treat for him so he came looking. He left when he realized he wasn't getting a treat. I was prepared the next morning tho and he has been hanging around a lot more. He is still a baby. 

 We have a lot of sea gulls and they are pretty wild. They are not as easily trained as the crows. I still love to watch them and try to be up so I can see them but they are usually really early with the bats. We have tons of bats that roost in the trees and they are like clock work. If I am a single minute late getting outside then I miss them and can only see a few stragglers that come by.

 I had to go to see my podiatrist. He takes care of my feet and I had him look at my pinkie toe as it is so sore and I can barely wear my shoe on the left foot. I started complaining about it back a few weeks ago when Courtney's parents were here and I had Courtney look at it. She said it was red but didn't see anything wrong with it. Well he x-rayed it and it is broken in 3 places. I haven't done anything to it for it to be broken. No stumps, nothing that I can recall and since there is nothing that can be done about it I said "Well now I know why it hurts!" I swear I am falling apart piece by piece lol.

 I have some things that I need to do soon. I guess I need to get busy with it. I have a sink full of dishes to wash but I will have to wait until Courtney is off work because her mic picks it all up so I guess that will teach me to wash the dishes after dinner at night. I was not feeling good last night and so I didn't wash them so I will make sure that I do tonight so I won't have so many. I hope lol.

 Have a great day tomorrow and a awesome weekend. Hugs to all and take care. BB

Wednesday, September 15, 2021

Hi, How Is Everyone Doing?


Hi, I really hope that everyone is doing alright. We are fine here. Knock on wood no-one is sick.

 This is a old Bruce Willis movie and if you want a uplifting funny movie this one is just awesome. I got it for Courtney and I to watch and we tried but it was one thing after another that we turned it off and said We are going to finish this tomorrow night lol. Well before I knew it tomorrow night was a week later. We made a mistake and invited Megan to come and watch it and we made it about 20 minutes into the movie and she had one phone call after the other and we decided that we were not going to invite her to watch a movie with us again. Courtney and I want to be able to actually watch the movie. We finally succeeded in watching the movie and it was hilarious. I had seen it before when it first came out but Courtney had not seen it so it was a real treat for me to see her relax and just sit back and lose herself into the movie. 

 I ordered 2 other movies for my son Matthews birthday. He has loved these movies so much and I had been thinking of things to get him so I ordered Over The Top with Sylvester Stallone and Black Dog with Patrick Swayze and he and Courtney went to the Pepper Mill to spend the night and he took the movies with him. That Boy! He was supposed to have checked out there Venue for their wedding but instead they went to eat then just enjoyed being in the suite but he ended up laying on the couch the next day and we all watched the movies together. Over The Top is about a truck driver that fights for custody of his son. I didn't think about that when I ordered the movie but it resembles what Matt is going thru now fighting for Alex. 

I didn't get to finish my post the other day. I actually need to go back and read over what I had written. We had seen cock roaches come up thru the drains so Courtney contacted the office and from what we were told they had found a infested apartment and they evicted the people and after they were gone, they sprayed it and gave all of us in the 6 units a 24 hour mandatory notice that our apartments would be fumigated. We had sufficient time to pack our things up and the 24 hour notice was to remind the residents and if they were not prepared then it could result in a steep charge and possible repercussions. So we started in one room and then after it was all done and we could get back in, it was late so we just did the necessities like getting the beds remade and moved back into place, I worked in the bathroom to get it back in order and Courtney worked in the kitchen for our coffee pot lol and since she had to work the next day and Alex had school we were racing against the clock for the kids bedtime and at 11:45 I went to see if I could help her in her room. She was laying on her bed and I could see that she was nearly asleep and she tried sitting up and fell back onto her pillow. I asked her "Would you like for me to just shut off your light?" and she said that would be wonderful. She was up bright and early the next morning tho. She had to get Alex off to school and clock in to work so the girl was up. I won't say that she was bright eyed and bushy tailed but she was up lol.

 Here I am several days later posting again! It has just been so crazy around here. I thought that I would be able to at least finish this over the weekend but that didn't happen. 

 I have these suction grip bars that I used on the shower. Back last Christmas I told Courtney that her shower wall was loose and she said that it had been like that and she had a work order put in and all that they did was come in and caulk the top of it and left. So it has been loose all this time. She said that it had been loose since she moved in but she put in a work order a couple of years ago because it was getting worse.

 Well there was a leak in the apartment below us and they came upstairs to see if we had a leak and the maintenance men told the office that my grip bars had pulled the wall loose and that is why they had a leak in the apartment below us so the office called Courtney and told her that they were going to come in and install a new surround shower wall but I couldn't use my grip bars and so Courtney said that they could pull up the original work order and the woman said "I'm not going to argue with you about this" and Courtney said alright "I will have my mother in law contact her advocate in this situation because she needs those bars because she is at risk of falling." So I contacted my advocate only to find out that she has either moved to a different position with the company or that she is no longer with the company and I would be assigned another Advocate and guess what? I have left message after message with the department that handles this. The office told Courtney that my advocate would have to hire a contractor to come out and put the bars in professionally because they would have to screw into the sheet rock. Yeah right.

 So the maintenance man was supposed to have been here at 10:30 Friday morning and told Courtney that there would be no noise because she reminded them that she works from home. Well they didn't show up until 3:30 Friday evening and yes there was quiet a lot of noise. Enough that Courtney had to call the rest of her work shift out. They left at exactly 5:00pm with only half of the wall put up and said that we couldn't use it for 24 hours. We all needed showers but we put it off. We skated thru. Sunday and the water was shut off most of the day for some reason but at least it was back on so that everyone could have a shower except me. I was waiting for hot water and I was just super tired so I thought that I would just get mine in the morning and that was when I called you Edna and was going to get my clothes and be ready to step into the shower and Matt had a court hearing and said "Mom I need your room and you cannot be in the room as it involves Alex." I said Ok I just need to get my clothes and I grabbed my pants but got a pair of shorts instead of the t-shirt I planned to wear and no socks and no shoes. My ride transportation called me to say that they were on their way so thankfully Matt walked out of my room and I dashed in and got ready but I just had to go to the doctor smelling like YUCK! When I got home the water was off again. Finally I was able to get my shower but no shower grips. Thankfully I have my shower chair. I never put weight on those grips. They are just there so when I turn around I have my hand on something just in case I slip but I have a wonderful bath mat and my chair so really it is a comfort thing but I will not put them back up because if for some reason I forget to take them down and the maintenance men have to come back up here in the future and see them on the shower wall Courtney might get in trouble and I wouldn't want that so I will keep trying to contact the advocate program and find out who my new advocate is and why no one has returned my calls.

 Matt failed breakfast this morning. He put the kids some french toast sticks in the microwave for a minute. One came out fine and the other plate burned to a crisp. lol. But he walked Alex to school and so all is good except the smell of burned toast haha.

 I gotta go. I want this posted today so I will say have a great day or evening where ever you are... BB


Sunday, August 29, 2021

To Tired To Think


 I have been trying to get to my computer to do a quick blog post but my good intentions are actually not meeting my life at the moment.

 Things have been really crazy here the past 3 months or maybe 4 and I feel so guilty when I go this long without posting but at the same time at the end of the day I am past exhausted and so I don't get the chance to even open my computer to check the things that I need to keep an eye on and so blogging is the last thing that is on my list and it just doesn't get done.

 I am going to sit down and email a few of you guys so that I can let you know what is going on in my life that I really cannot put on my blog. At least not right now. 

 I have things that I want to tell you about but even tho it shows that I don't get a lot of comments or followers I look at my stats and I see that I have a lot of views and I am not sure what to make of it. 

 I don't like the way the Stats are set up I wish that they were the way they were when I first started blogging, it seems I have lots of visitors but no one leaves comments except you Miss Edna and Steve.  Anyway I don't want to chance it that someone I may speak of happens to read my blog I will feel better if I just email you and tell you directly. 

 I don't know when I will actually get to the email but I am actually going to start it tomorrow. I have been bursting at the seams to get some of this stuff off of my chest.

 Karyn is supposed to call me tomorrow and we are supposed to catch up. This time difference is the pits. 3 hours to you Edna, and 2 hours to Texas it really makes it hard to call. When I can talk privately then everyone is getting ready to just chill out for the evening so I don't want to interrupt anyone's evening, whether they are sleeping or not it is still time for people to unwind after their day so I want to respect that. 

 I don't really have a lot of privacy here. It is totally different here.  Kids are kids and they are in and out, having fun with their friends, activities etc. 

 School has started and Alex is in band this year and learning to play the flute! I am really proud of him. He got his instrument on Friday so homework is taking the flute apart and put back together and to learn to play 3 to 5 notes. He is doing really well actually.

 I have to go to bed because it is after 2 in the morning here so I need to get some sleep because tomorrow is another busy day for me.

 Have a great day to everyone. Hugs to all and as always take care of yourself. BB

Wednesday, August 11, 2021

A Little Crazy Goes A Long Way!


My son Matthew on Monday. He was dressed in his Sunday best for a court hearing. When I look at this photo of him I cannot believe how much more mature he looks since he has started driving a truck. I guess it has made him grow "Older" lol. Ssshh I really didn't say that did I? lol


 I hope that all are doing well. I guess that we are ok. At least we are working on being ok. Monday was the first day of school for Alex. He missed it because he and his dad and Courtney had a court hearing which ended up being re-scheduled because the other party did not appear on time. Right before they left to go for the court hearing they received a confirmation that Alex did not have to attend but since the hearing was a hour and a half away they did not have time to take him to his class and spend the time that his first period asked the parents to attend so he started the next day and it worked out fine. His dad was able to meet his teacher and stay for awhile, fill out any papers that needed to be filled out which was not many because all of that is done online now. He was enrolled a week before school even started and he also was able to get the electives that he wanted. 

 He said today that he really liked the school lunches. He said that the food is a lot better than the food at his old school. He eats breakfast here and today he chose chicken nuggets, corn, green beans, a roll, and a banana and milk. He is able to choose as it is cafeteria style.

 He is going to call me on his way home each day because he will be walking and that will be a added plus for me. He will have Courtney's sister in law meet and walk him home but today he walked home by himself (along with a group of kids who live here at the complex) so he wasn't alone and if he wants to call me then I think that is just wonderful. 

 This child has been thru so much. I can't post about it because it is rather private at the moment and so really can't comment because of court hearings and such but hopefully things will be looking up not only for him but for his 5 siblings as well. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers for we surely need as much positivity as possible.

 We are working on wedding plans. The wedding date might change due to our family situation but right now the wedding plans are still in the works. We are excited and happy and Courtney and Matthew have chosen the venue and it will be rather beautiful. As the mother of the Groom I don't have that much to do at the moment. I did order my dress for the rehearsal dinner for the night before. I am waiting to see what Courtney's mom chooses for the actual wedding as we are suppose to dress similar but not exact. For my rehearsal dinner dress I am going to have the buttons replaced because the buttons look like giant pearls and they are just gaudy and Courtney is not a fan of pearls and in the catalog the buttons look like silver snaps but in reality they are huge white balls and half of them look like they are going to fall off any second so I am going to have them replaced with something else and thankfully they are just decorative and do not actually button up. I do love the dress tho. It fits like a dream and very comfortable. 

 I am going home to Texas the first week in October so I can go thru a few things in storage and spend a couple of weeks and it is also my birthday on the 11th so I will be glad to be able to spend some time with Jonathan and Karyn and then the second week of November I am flying to San Diego and spend a week with Patsy so I have a few fun things planned. All according to my health of course. I really hope that I stay well. I am going to try my best to and I will schedule all of my eye stuff around the few weeks that I am home. Then my traveling will be over because the holidays will be looming right around the corner.

 Before I go I want to tell you what Courtney and Matthew got for me. They know that I have such a hard time staying cool so they got me a new time of cooler. It is called  Newair. It has a big basin in the bottom for water and comes with a ice pack that keeps the water cool for 8 hours. It is portable so I can pull it close to my bedside if I need additional cool air or move it to where it can just circulate around the room. It also has a humidifier to help with the dry air. It is really super nice and I am really happy with it. I said no when Courtney first talked to me about it because the nights are cooling down really nice and I know that money is needed for other things, especially since Alex is here and needed new clothes and his school requires uniforms and so I said no but they surprised me with it and I can't believe how much of a difference it has made with my sleeping.

 It is almost time to start dinner so I will go for now. I hope to catch up reading everyone's blog as soon as possible. Please take care and I hope to be back soon. I am going to have to change my computer hours since Alex is in the computer area for now. I enjoy my computer at night but it will be really good for me to change my hours in the day instead of night. 

 So please take care of yourself and I will be back as soon as I can. BB

Monday, August 9, 2021

A Hard Couple Of Months



 I know that everyone thinks that I have dropped off the face of the earth but I have just had so much going on and it has left me drained. By the time that I am ready to post I don't have the energy to do so. I don't even know where to start so much has happened.

 I am not sure if I posted it or not but I was in the hospital for several days. I lost a couple of days because I don't remember anything other than what I have been told but apparently I passed out and Courtney called 911 and they carried me to the hospital where they found that my kidney was sepsis and I was very ill. To make matters worse the paramedics had to take me to a different hospital rather than the one in my network and Courtney wasn't listed there as my next of kin or emergency contact but she did get in touch with one of the head nurses and gave her my medical history and medication list and I have made sure that Courtney is listed as not only my emergency contact but my daughter.  (Which is not a lie). That story is coming up next.  Anyway I got the care that I needed and I had a very sweet roommate who's daughter told me about her retina specialist so I called when I got home and made an appointment and I am so glad that I did. We did a different procedure which was some drops in the eye and I had to keep my head down for the entire day. It was something to do with the retinas and I didn't have to have a eye injection so that was pretty awesome for me.

My son Matthew and Courtney got back together. They worked out their problems and I was so happy and I think that I posted about him asking her to marry him. They have been planning away for their wedding nexf July. But lots of things can change because we now have my 10 year old grandson living with us. Matthew had been trying for years to get custody of him and the authorities contacted Matt that he needed to come and get him immediately. The funny thing is that on that day Matt arrived a day early and his receiver accepted his load a day early so he came home and picked up Celeste to go and get Alex and they were about half way when Matthew got the phone call. He said I am on my way. I really hope that everything works out good for him. This child has really blossomed in the short time that we have had him living with us.

 Today is the first day of school and Alex had to miss it. Legal stuff so he has been excused but it is going to put him a day behind and I am sorry for him for not being able to be their on the very first day. But it will work out the way that it works out.

 I hate this laptop. I am about ready to wipe it clean and start completely over with it. There really isn't anything on here that I can't replace. I am so tired of trying to work with my scrapbook program and it has just been a headache trying to work on it and so Courtney said to wait until she gets a little free time and we will wipe it clean and start over with it. I have read the user manual back and forth and it is not covering the problems that I am having with it. My old laptop was working fine right before I moved to Reno but once I booted it up it took a day and a half to come on and it is running so slow that I can't change from one program to another on it and I am very upset about it. Obviously it has problems. Jonathan said that it sounds like it caught a virus and I said well of course. That is just my luck. I have some scrapping elements and a couple of kits on it that I really would hate to lose but the day I was going to back them up is when I noticed that the laptop was running sluggish and I didn't back them up. So I think that I am happy in one way because I could have infected my external hard drive with something. 

 I have to go. I have a doctor appointment today so I have to get in the shower and get ready so I hope all has a fantastic day. Hugs to all and Blessed Be. BB  

Saturday, June 26, 2021

Is It Really The Weekend??

 More art from my album Blog Inspirations. I totally forgot all about this album and when Courtney fixed my photos and I started making my albums I came across this one and I decided to use some of these pictures until I get back to scrapbooking full time. 

 I have some wonderful photos but I promised Courtney that I wouldn't put any photos of Celeste online. It is a long story but it is for safety reasons and as a parent I cannot say that I blame her. 

 It is always wonderful to see pictures of our kids, how much they have grown, the cute things that they do and the fun pics but since I realize the danger that these innocent photos can put our kids in, I wish more parents wouldn't display so much of their children's activities online. 

 I made some English Pea Salad the other day and Celeste was sitting on the counter so she could stir the ingredients and it was so funny to watch her because she asked for a spoon and she just reached in and loaded up her spoon and took a bite right out of the big bowl. Needless to say she loved my pea salad and I sent photos I took of her to her daddy, her Aunty Karyn and both of her uncles and her mama. I realized that I can send pics to who I wanted to in our family. I didn't have to display them all on Facebook, Instagram and so forth. I know that even my photos can be hacked but I feel more comfortable doing this than splashing them all over the internet. 

 It is 4 in the morning and I am still awake. But no one has a set bedtime on the weekends. I am usually asleep by now but nothing ever goes according to plans. I should just stop trying to plan things and just take things as they come rather than trying to plan something.

Weekend before last we had a house full of company. Randy from Salt Lake City Utah was here and then Courtney's mom and sister from Colorado.

 I know that Denise and Cecile wanted to spend time with all of the grandkids but in my opinion it would have been easier if they had gone over to her son's house but no, everyone came here. It was really a mad house. Courtney had to work the last day they were here so it was hard trying to keep the kids quiet while she worked. Denise has a doctor here and asked me if I could watch the kids for about 45 minutes. I said sure no problem but her daughter Cecile decided to drive her to her appointment and they took the kids with them. That just left me, Celeste and Randy here and by the time that they got back and we had lunch (Denise brought back burgers) and the kids played. The day before on Sunday we had the birthday party for Lily and Brayden and we did not do a party and a meal like we had done before. It was sort of a let's see what we have in the fridge. I had made a huge pot of vegetable beef soup and we had chicken and cheese enchiladas and lots of sandwich fixings plus a huge Chef salad so no one was going to go hungry. 

 The next weekend Courtney and her sister in law Megan and I had a girls night out. We put a movie on for the kids and we sat outside. I am not sure what to call the space that we sit at. It isn't really a balcony but it isn't a patio either. It is a nice little area that overlooks the parking lot, the park and the front of the exit gate. Whatever it is we do have a beautiful view of the mountains. 

 The night of our girls night out we just put the kids down for bed and they spent the night. Megan and Bryan Lily, Gunner, Luke and Emma were up with the birds, and I forgot to add Celeste in the list as well. Celeste is pretty self sufficient. She can get her own breakfast and juice so no worries there, but the other kids are not able to get their own unless it is something like a pop tart or something similar and Celeste will help with that.

 The rest of the week was not a easy one and Courtney described it as the week from HELL. She had some of the rudest customers that yelled at her for the most part and one call lasted over a hour and a half. Courtney missed her entire lunch break day before yesterday. 

 She got her lunch break and one of her breaks today but missed one completely and I called Matt today (Yesterday) and he asked if she was ok and I said yes but was working and didn't come out for her break so she must have been on a difficult call. He said that she usually texted him during her breaks but he didn't hear from her. She called him when she got off work because her dad had eye surgery yesterday and she was texting her mom because something didn't go right with his surgery and he was having a follow up. 2 years ago her had had a complete eyeball transplant and he developed a cataract but something else had gone wrong and he may lose that eye. So Courtney was trying to understand what the doctor was saying to her dad. Matt understood so they are good.

 This is basically a recap of my last blog and I really wanted to blog about something else but I am really too tired to go into it so I will save it for my next post which I will try and do tomorrow or later tonight depending on if I get any sleep. 

 I will be getting a eye injection on Monday so I will have to blog tonight or tomorrow. It will take a few days to get my sight back so I will talk to you tomorrow... Be safe and Be kind to one another and take care of yourselves.... BB


Monday, June 21, 2021

My Son Nathan And Other Crazy Happenings

I forgot that I had experimented with this kind of art a few years ago. This is not my work but it and others like it has been inspiration for a lot of my pages in the past. I am going to be trying to get back into my scrapbooking soon but right now I am having some problems with my old computer not coming on that has some of my newer kits for my scrapbooking program and I really need to find out what is going on with it because this laptop does not like any of my kits or the scrapbooking program that I use and I thought that I had everything backed up but I guess that is what I get for thinking because I cannot find the newer kits I had backed up. 

 Courtney is going to help me when things settle down just a little bit more if that is ever. But she did fix my phone so that my photos will now be synced to my Google photos and I have started working on my albums.


 I have been trying to get over to blog for the last week or so but things have just been really crazy around here. 

 I think that I told you all that last week Courtney had a family friend from Utah come over and spend almost a week with us.

 His name is Randy. He is Courtney's older sister Heathers biological father. He goes to California every year for Heathers daughters (His granddaughters) birthday. On the way back to Utah he stops in to visit Courtney and her brothers. This past weekend was really busy because Courtney's mom and sister came Friday night and stayed until Tuesday morning. Randy left Monday morning.

 I asked Courtney if it felt weird for her mom to spend a long weekend with her ex-husband here. Courtney said no, that they all get along fine, which they all did, so I guess that they worked out the dynamics of families a long time ago.

 My son Nathan flew in also towards the end of the week. He went to school just outside of Reno in a town called Sparks Nevada. He and Matthew both went to the same school. Well Nathan's best friends name is Paul and he is a manager of a Truck Stop in Fernley. 

 Paul is a direct descendent of their Tribal Chief and his grandmother passed away last year and Paul told Nathan that he could live in his grandmothers house that is next door to his house so that is convenient and Nathan can go to work at the truck stop. The pay is what he was making in Austin and Paul told Nathan that the house needs work so Nathan will work on the house also.

 Nathan and Paul are wanting to take HVAC classes and then they can get a lot of hands on training and re-wire both of the houses. Right now they only have fans to help keep them cool. Nathan bought a 110 window unit the other day and just has to install it. The nights are really nice and cool here right now so that is a plus but during the day, fans are just not enough.

 So Nathan is living on the reservation in Wadsworth. Yeah I know... the names of some of these places are really crazy. Nathan spent most of his free time with Paul and his family while they were in school except for Christmas. Nathan came home for 3 weeks Christmas every year. 

 One year my boyfriend and I went to see my daughter Laurie and we had a really nice A-Frame camper and we camped at San Bernardino National park in California and then on our way back home we decided to stay a few days at Pyramid Lake. It was only about 45 miles from the school where Nathan was and it was a long weekend. I called his counselor and made arrangements to come and pick Nathan up and I wanted it to be a surprise and so I asked his counselor to not let him sign out for the weekend so that I could come and get him.

 Well as usual things never go as planned. When I got to the school I pulled over and called him and when he answered I said "Hey, what are you doing?" Nathan replied "I'm walking to the car. Stay where you are and I will be there in 2 minutes." 

 Awww how did he know I was there? Well his counselor had to leave early and so he told Security that Nathan Reed's mother would be there around 4:00pm to sign him out for the weekend and Security sent a note to Nathan's workshop director telling him to tell Nathan that his mom was picking him up and to get what he needed from his dorm because they were locking it up for the long weekend. So Nathan was dismissed from his last class of the day and went to the dorm to pack what he wanted to bring with him and then he went out front to wait on me. I still had to go to the Security post and sign Nathan out and then we were as Nathan put it... Outta there lol.

 We had a great weekend. Nathan was pretty exhausted and we had a great camping spot and we also had free cable and so Nathan just watched a lot of movies and slept some. I was tired from all of the driving so I enjoyed the down time as well. I took Nathan back to school on Tuesday and my boyfriend and I took the long way back home. We chose to go home by Route 66 and let me tell you that was one scary drive pulling a camper behind me on some of those hair pin curves but after I made it to our destination I was so glad that I got to experience it.

 We ate at a little cafe where dollar bills covered the walls, ceilings, doors and we also went to the hotel and saw the room where Clark Gable and Carole Lombard spent their wedding night. By todays standards the room was/is a dump. The bed looked very lumpy but they did have a telephone, a wash basin and water pitcher, a small pretty lamp next to the bed and if I recall some kind of rug. 

 Anyway I asked Nathan to call me when his plane landed and he did call me. He asked for my address and his friend Paul brought him to see me. Celeste was ecstatic and she was not about to let her Uncle Nate out of her sight for a single second but she did give in and let him use the bathroom but as soon as he was done she was standing before him with her arms UP and Ready for her Uncle Nate. It was the first time that I got to meet Paul. I have talked to him lots of times on the phone and on Messenger but in all of the years that he and Nathan have known one another this was the first time that I actually got to meet him. They stayed about an hour and then headed back so that Paul could get ready to go to work.

 So Matthew was going to Austin to pick up a load and scoop up Nathan while he was there and bring him out to Reno but Matthew was worried about his weight and so he took one of Nathans huge duffle bags, his amplifier and his guitar and Nathan decided to fly to Reno. It turned out to be kind of a good thing in the long run because Matthew didn't get a load to Reno after all. He ended up going to Portland Oregon and then to Washington State. I might have that backwards but it doesn't matter really. Courtney's brother picked Nathan up yesterday and drove him to Boise Idaho to get his things off of Matts truck. It was the first time that Bryan and Nathan had ever met and they seemed to hit it off great. Boise is only 6 and a half hours from here but Matt was going to put Nathan and Bryan up in a motel but Bryan wanted to get on back home because he wanted to be here with the kids for Father's Day. Yeah well that didn't go as planned. I will get to that in a little bit. But for now... 

 Last night while Bryan and Nathan was on their way back to Reno, Megan and the kids came over and we put a movie on for the kids and we sat outside enjoying the beautiful orange moon and cool breeze and then the when the movie was over we put the kids down to bed and we decided to have a girls night out.

 Courtney has not had anything stronger to drink than a beer in a couple of years. Megan went home and got a bottle of Southern Comfort Whiskey and I had my trusty Margaritas.

 Then we had music, laughter and Courtney read our horoscopes and we had more laughter. Megan called Bryan to check on him and Nathan called me to say that Bryan had just dropped him off and was on his way to Reno. 

 We went thru our playlists to play some songs and Courtney went inside to check on the kids and when she came out she was like... Oh My Song and she and Megan started singing and dancing and they looked so cute both of them more than Tipsy and I decided to video them... I can't figure out how to share it here so I will have to have Megan or Courtney show me how to do it. I have it saved in my videos but I am probably doing something wrong. Oh we had soooo much fun. I sent the video to Matt this morning and he laughed his butt off. He said you girls are terrible. Here I am out here working my ass off and y'all are getting wasted. I said... Not me. It takes more than 2 puny margaritas to get me wasted. Tipsy maybe but not wasted. Now Megan had to go to work with a hangover this morning and Courtney said, "Now I remember why I don't drink hard liquor." lol. I really wanted to put that video in this blog. I may just have to do it next time.

 Today was not a good day as far as the kids go or as Nana or the parents go. In fact it was one of those days that I ended up short tempered and all of the kids saw a side of Nana that they had never seen before.

 Not one of them minded. They tore the room up multiple times. Gunner the 3 year old was one of the worse. Not once but twice he tried to stick his fingers into the box fan. I saved his fingers TWICE today and finally I told him..... "You know what little boy? I am not stopping you from this second forward. If you don't want your fingers then go ahead and stick them in the damn fan and let them get cut off. I don't care any more." Well lets just say that I think he learned a valuable lesson because I didn't stop him the third time and he screamed and screamed and screamed. He didn't stick his fingers far enough in there but far enough that it scared him more than anything. I let his mama and daddy handle it. I told Megan I was going outside and have a cigarette and when he stopped screaming I would be back in. He still has all fingers but I bet he won't be doing that again.

 Earlier in the day the kids dumped out all of the toys and we were making them all clean them back up. Well Celeste comes in with her silver unicorn head band and wanted it put away so it didn't get broke. Courtney was busy so I took the head band and put it on Celeste's dresser. Far back on her dresser and I showed Celeste where I put it. When I went back in to check and see if they had the room picked back up the sheet and comforter to my bed was pulled off into the floor and I reached down to pick them up and stepped on the unicorn head band. I asked who got it down and well we have a Not Me ghost living here. No one would confess, and I said well the only way that it could have gotten down was if someone climbed up on something and got it down. Still they swore that they didn't do it so I lined everyone of them up against the wall with their hands behind their backs and they hate that with a passion and Emma especially hates it so she confessed with in 5 minutes but the problem with her confession was that she couldn't tell me how she got it down. She was going to confess just to get out of standing on the wall so she ended up with extra time which made her start bawling which in turn woke up the 2 year old so they stood there a good 45 minutes before Lily confessed that she and Celeste climbed up on the handles of the dresser and got the head band down. Oh Celeste was pissed that Lily ratted her out too. So I gave each one a potty break and a drink of water. I told them that they had better drink as much as they wanted because I wasn't going to play the I'm thirsty game. That is where they just drink a tiny sip and keep going back every 5 minutes because they are thirsty. Nope Nana doesn't play that game.  So they each got to potty and have a drink and then they got to sit on the sofa until lunch was ready and then they had to sit back on the sofa until nap time. Celeste never takes a nap but she was the first one to say that she was tired. Yeah she was tired alright. She and Lily were on the top bunk just having a grand old time until I went to check on them and I made Lily get down off of the top and she kept saying but my mom said I could and I said I don't care what your mom said, get your butt down from there and lay down on my bed now. When I went back in again, Celeste was leaning over the top rail talking to Lily so I made Celeste leave the room entirely and she thought that she was going to get her tablet and she got all nice and comfortable and I said.. Hand it over. She started crying and I said... If you want it back any time this week then you better dry it up little girl. You know me well enough to know that your crying does not phase me. In fact it makes me mad to see you just bust out crying when you do not get your way.  

 So I couldn't figure out exactly what kind of punishment to give Celeste and Lily for lying to me about the head band so Celeste usually gets a little extra time on her tablet at night. I told Courtney I didn't think that she deserved the extra time for lying to me and Courtney agreed. Well she thought that her mama wouldn't agree with me so she was in for a surprise when her mama told her to get her pajamas on, her teeth brushed and her hair brushed and get in bed, Courtney followed up to tell her good night and what was Miss Celeste doing? She was watching tv. The tv went off and the water works started but not for long. She knew that she was still in trouble and big trouble for lying to me.

 And Miss Lily got into trouble more than for her part in the head band fiasco and had to do without her dinner tonight. She didn't know that her mom put her plate in her bag to take home tonight but just the thought of not getting dinner and having to watch the other kids eat while she sat on the sofa was hard but her mom and dad made that decision over something that happened earlier and the last time that they had to clean the in the day because I did lay down on the sofa and nap for about a half hour or so and Courtney said that it took over 2 hours for them to clean that room back up yet again... they were busy playing. That might have been why Lily was in trouble with her mom and dad. I don't know because I did sleep for a little while.

 It was a long hard day and I told Courtney that I was happy that tomorrow was a work day for her and I would just have Celeste to take care of. I am too old to take care of 4 other kids. They wore me out. 

 Speaking of wearing me out, I am very tired. I am passed exhausted so I am going to go to bed. I have to be ready for a doctors appt. early so I am going to say good night now and you all thanks so much for listening to me moan and groan and whine.  Have a wonderful evening/day... Until next time... BB



Monday, June 14, 2021

Our Birthday Boy Last Year (1st Birthday) & His Daddy


Happy Birthday Brayden, Nana Loves You!


 This post isn't going to be as long as I would like but to tell the truth it would be 10 pages long with all of the happenings that is going on around here lol. I can say that since I have moved to Nevada I have been busy as a bee. Maybe even busier but I have had to slow down some. I guess that I have really just been watching a lot of the things that are happening instead of physically being in the middle of it all. Still I have little ones to hug and kiss and cuddle with. I have scrapes and boo boos that only kisses from Nana can make better and of course no matter what I am eating or drinking, my food must always taste better than their food lol. And I LOVE every minute of it all.

So the picture above is of Brayden. He turned 2 yesterday June 12th and he had his big party yesterday. It was originally planned to be at the park but Mom and Dad decided to have it at home instead for a couple of reasons. First is it is just to hot even at 6 or 7 in the evening and Mom just had a baby on the 30th, a little girl Brayia is her name. I haven't seen her just yet but I will in time.


This is Brayden and Caleb today right before the party. He is just so darn sweet. I will post pics of Lily and some more of the party tomorrow. I am adding this one in because I forgot to add it when I first started typing my blog. Caleb is really tired. He works nights and he hasn't been getting much sleep at all since Brayia was born. 

 W\e had a family party for Brayden today shared with his cousin Lily who turned 6 last Saturday. Bryan and Megan did have it at the park and the kids had a blast but it was hot and windy and so I missed the party because I was in the hospital. I didn't get out until Sunday evening late. 

 The main reason for the family party was that Grandma Denise and Aunty Cecily were driving in from Colorado and they haven't gotten to spend much time with the kids so it was a special occasion and it was the first time that I had gotten to meet Courtney's mom and sister and they also had a family friend Randy who makes the trip every year to spend a week with Courtney, Celeste and her brothers and their families. So it was chaotic but a lot of fun but it was tiring fun. I have loads of pictures but I have to go thru them when Courtney has a few minutes which is probably Never according to her lol to look at my phone and find out why the pics I am taking with my phone are not being backed up to my photos so I can put them in albums. It is supposed to do it automatically but so far it isn't and I have labeled a few and they have disappeared. They are not in the albums that I put them in and I really need 2 pics so I can make Bryan and Caleb's Father's Day scrap pages. It is hard to believe that next Sunday is Father's Day. I haven't even got to finish Mother's Day scrap pages just yet. 

 One of my sisters told me over the phone the other day that now that I am not working I should have a lot of free time but that is just not the case.

 Monday thru Friday while Courtney works, Celeste is busy with some of her learning books and activities and I am either on the phone with making my doctor appointments, ride transportation or I am helping Celeste with what ever she is working on and before I know it Courtney has her first break. If I am home then Celeste and I go downstairs and feed the birds. We spend at least a half hour making little mounds of bird seed and filling some bowls that we found so the birds can have a drink of water or splash around and it is fun for us. After we feed the birds we stand back and be really quiet and wait for them to come find their food. The birds we are seeing are little baby birds. I don't know the names of them and they are so fast that all of my pictures are never that good. And we will make a game out of seeing which side of the gate that they will go to first and usually it is the gate nearest to our apartment building. 

 By this time it is getting hot outside and so we scatter the rest of the seed that we have in different areas and Celeste will call out her goodbyes to the birdies. "See you tomorrow little babies" and she and I head inside where we sit and cool off and she will try and call her daddy and if he doesn't answer she will leave him a sweet voice mail telling him to call her  later. She will use the time to entertain herself while I check my messages and try to take care of what I need to and then Courtney has her lunch break. We eat and I clean the kitchen and by that time I am ready for a nap or at least lay down and rest. Celeste will lay down with me and watch something on her tablet and I usually do fall asleep and Courtney will wake me up when she has her afternoon break checking my sugar. I get up so I can spend some time with her and we usually decide on what we are going to have for dinner, discuss any errands that need to be done and after we have dinner the evening is ours. We either listen to some music and talk to Matthew and if we are not doing that then we have the tv on and watch something on Netflix. This coming week she and I are going to be watching a fun series called Schitz Creek. If you have Netflix and want some good old fashion Belly Laughs then add this to your watch list. It is too funny. I don't know how many seasons it has because I haven't looked and I only watched a couple of episodes because I want to watch it with Courtney. She has been working so hard and doing so much and we have both been worried about Matthew. He has been running a really high fever and his throat is extremely sore and I know that he has strep throat. He is on his way to Austin to pick up Nathan and bring to Reno and I want to blog about that too. I need to make a list of everything that I want to blog about so that I can finally get some of it blogged. I think that everyone is going home early Tuesday morning. I really like Courtney's mom and sister. I wish that we had more time to spend getting to know each other better but they both have to get back home and get back to work. 

 It is 2:15 in the morning and we have Luke who is 2 and Emma who is 4 and I know tha tthey will be up bright and early and so we will have to be on our toes because Luke loves his Aunty Courtney and he doesn't like her bedroom door closed and he can't get to her so Grandma and Nana will have to make sure that he stays in the front part of the apartment. His babysitter will come and get both kids around 9 or 10 so it will not be too bad. 

 Take care and I will talk to everyone again. I really am going to make a list of things that I want to blog about and I am going to try to blog every chance I get. I brought my laptop into my room and I am using my night stand for it to sit on and I don't have room for my mouse and I just got a warning that my battery is low so I am going to go and plug my laptop in and I am going to bed. Have a great day/evening,,,     XOXOXO Please take care of yourself and I will talk to you soon... BB

Tuesday, June 8, 2021

Good Evening,

 I will not keep you long this evening, I just wanted to stop in and say hello. I have been in the hospital again this time with what they called Urosepsis. I will just give you this summery.

Urosepsis is a type of sepsis that is a severe reaction to an infection, usually a (urinary tract infection) and spreads to the blood.

 It can cause all kinds of things that are very scary and that led to some scary moments. I was hospitalized and on heavy antibiotics and I also had to have another medication to bring down my potassium because my kidney could not filter it out so I am home now but very tired. I have been on the phone most of the day scheduling some things and getting ready for Friday as Courtney's mom and younger sister is coming for the weekend along with a family friend. So a full and busy house. 

 Hugs to all. Blessed Be and stay safe always. BB


Sunday, May 23, 2021

Rain Snow And Birthdays!

 Happy Birthday Caleb!

 So Friday was Caleb's birthday. Caleb is Courtney's younger brother and we gave him a small birthday party. Unfortunately it didn't go as planned. Courtney, Celeste, Caleb and his young son Braden was the only ones here Friday night so they finished the birthday party tonight.

 I wasn't feeling well so I was in my room sleeping but I had to get up and go to the bathroom and Caleb had already gone home because he had to get ready for work but Bryan, Megan and the kids were still here and they took Celeste home with them to spend the night. 

 But here are some highlights from Friday night.

Courtney is going to send me some more pics tomorrow of Caleb and everyone. I gave him my present early because he was supposed to have friends come but at the last minute they had to cancel and I wanted him to have his gift from me in private because of the nature of the gift. It might not have been appropriate in front of people I didn't know but he got a kick out of it and when I said that he could take it home early he smiled and I got an extra hug for that alone! I got him some edible Sour Appletini gummies and a couple more type of edibles to go with it.

 Bryan and I went to the dollar tree so I could get him a card and I picked one up for Karyn since her birthday is June 9th and I will get Jonathan one next week and get them mailed out and we also have Bryan and Megan's daughter Lily's birthday on June 6th Caleb's little boy Braden will be 2 June 12th and Father's day is coming up. So it is all going to be a busy June.

 We are going to be so busy next week. We have the apartment building to come and do a pest control bombing and spraying on our apartment. We have to move all of the furniture 3 feet from the wall and some of the furniture is to heavy to move. We are going to pack up a lot of things and put in storage to make room for things that we want to keep but we need the room for other things. Dishes that we are not using at the moment, clothes and toys that Celeste can't wear anymore or are still too big because her mom is smart and buys things an extra size larger so she can grow into them and toys that she wants to keep or toys that just cost too much money to get rid of at the moment. 

 I have some things that I can put into storage as well. Karyn is bringing some more of my things when she comes to visit so it will be nice to have some extra room and we are seeing bugs that are coming in and up thru the sinks and bathtub drains so we want to make sure that we get rid of them while we can. We are seeing them in the oddest places. I told Courtney where we see one then there are 50 we are not seeing. UGH... but one good thing is that we just called the office and reported it and they put us on the monthly schedule and they sent us a reminder notice that they will be here to spray and set off the bug bombs on Thursday.

 So on Thursday I had a appointment for a echocardiogram and I hit it off with my Taxi cab driver. He was listening to a great radio station and so I took my notebook out of my purse to jot down the station and I guess that I took my phone out as well.

 Long story short, my insurance did not cover the echocardiogram at the location that I was at so I had to be rescheduled to have it done out at the hospital. I was a bit aggravated and then I was in a panic because I couldn't find my phone.

 I must have taken it out when I pulled out my notepad. The sweet lady at the front desk contacted the taxi company and I explained to her that I had to have left it in his taxi. She contacted him and he came back to pick me up and yes he had my phone. 

 This is the second time I have done this so today when Courtney stopped in at The Home Depot to get some plastic bins with lids she found me the neatest thing. Ir is a phone tether. It attaches to the back of my phone and then hooks onto a loop on the strap on my purse or jeans, jackets or even to my wrist.

 She was like.. "I'm not saying you can't keep track of your phone, but... " 

 I was happy to have it. Funny thing is that her sister lost her phone today and I told her to go back tomorrow to get her sister one of these because she has lost her phone twice this year as well. She will be coming up with Courtney's mom in June so it will be a perfect little gift for her as well!

 Well this is about all of the news that I have for now so I am going to close and go to bed. I have to help Courtney tomorrow and I also have paperwork to file and then I have to get ready for a new week with appointments. In the meantime everyone, please stay safe and have a wonderful week ahead... Hugs to all... BB


Thursday, May 20, 2021

A Little News


My grandson Damien and I at naptime back when they were living with us in Texas, He and I always had story time and naptime together, I sure miss him...

 I Updated my post  Tuesday so please go back and read that post. Hugs to all and be safe,,, BB

Tuesday, May 18, 2021




 This morning is fast leaving and lunch time is creeping up slowly. It is ok I guess. I am still not able to eat much at all but I did get my Bragg's apple cider vinegar late yesterday from Amazon and I had my first tsp in a little Pedialyte this morning. My stomach is still not doing feeling well and I had some soup last night and sad to say that I lost it about an hour later but one thing good happened  and that was that was I was able to sleep all night last night.

 I said goodnight to Matthew and I was afraid that he would be gone if I awoke during the night and of course when I got up this morning he was gone. I knew that he had to be at the shipper early this morning and he is heading to Portland Oregon and he is going to be heading into that winter storm so I called him and we chatted until he had to get off the phone and get ready to be loaded. He is hauling cases of water this trip. He brought in a shipment of Coke products Sunday. 

 So I am not sure what happened with my last post but it did not publish all of it. I have had that happen before but usually the entire post is lost, not just part of it but it is what it is and I also have some new notifications. As long as I can post then I am happy for the most part.

 We have been looking at houses but so far they are way out of our price range and Courtney contacted the office to see if any 3 bedrooms are coming open for rent where we are and there is one that might be coming open the end of June and it is on the first floor.

 I am having problems navigating the stairs. They are a beast for me and each time I have to use them I feel horrible pains in my legs and walking is extremely difficult.

 What I will miss about where I am now is the awesome view of the mountains from the balcony and the cool breezes late evenings and mornings. We have direct sunlight and a metal door and it is so hot that when we have to go in or out the heat sucks the breath right out of you. 

This isn't a great photo but Saturday we had snow on the mountains. This is actually Lake Tahoe from our balcony.

Packing will be hard and it is going to be a bit of a financial crunch, I think that it is so sad that apartments don't want to work with disabled people. I guess that if they rent to you at all then we should be lucky. I know that in Austin we were turned down several times because the units were not handicapped accessible, but we were lucky to be able to get first floor most of the time.

 Speaking of which, my kids are not finding anything right now that is renting or leasing, and Karyn and her guy are not even finding a house to buy that fits their needs. I have visions of my kids pitching a tent somewhere but Karyn assures me that they will go to a motel if they have too. I don't find that funny in the least because they have been looking since March and have spent so much money on application fees and hold fees and nothing is available even in the outskirts. 

 I was going to go home for a visit in the next few weeks but since I might not have a place to go to visit I decided against it. Also the heat and the fact that I am just not feeling my best all made me decide that my case of being homesick is just going to have to be that. A case of homesickness, and I do miss my kids. I miss Foxy so much. No pets here. Courtney is allergic to cats and dogs and that is so sad to me because Celeste wants a Dalmatian and has since she was just a little thing. I wish that I could just have a little baby like my Cisco or Foxy but I know that it is not possible with all of the allergies that they both have. 

 Well it is time for me to get off of here and figure out something to eat other than saltine crackers and ginger ale. Have a great day to everyone. Stay safe and wear your masks when you have to. BB


 Thursday: Update

 Good morning,

Brrrr it is cold here. The photo I posted of the dark sky I mistakenly said that it was of a winter storm. I stand corrected. The weather app said that it is a Late Spring Storm moving in from Canada. Well it is here and the wind is really kicking butt and taking names. I actually got caught in a huge wind gust and sand storm yesterday. I was standing outside waiting for my taxi to get here and suddenly the wind started blowing and loose gravel, sand leaves and twigs came bombarding me but the temps were not bad. I didn't even need a jacket but wow it is a different story this morning.

 Speaking of wind gusts, I went out this morning because I was really hot. I get those darn hot flashes! Anyway I heard this rattle as a huge gust of wind came out of nowhere and I grabbed hold of the railing to keep from falling over and I turned to look over my shoulder and our neighbors lawn chair was flying up and almost went over the railing but fell back down as fast as it went up.  It was funny in a way and not the first time that it has happened.

 On Monday I think it was, I had to go out as I was having a package delivered and Celeste wanted to go out with me. She was wearing this really pretty dress with a full skirt and I had witnessed the chair flying earlier but I didn't think much about her coming out until the wind caught her skirt and she looked like Mary Poppins without the umbrella lol but thankfully she didn't fly away but she agreed to go back inside lol. 

 Well I will have an adventure today. I have to go for a echocardiogram and I think that I am going to be sort of lucky in one way. I have been trying to get a appointment with an endocrinologist to manage my diabetes. I have called and called and the all I get is the answering service, so yesterday when I was at my PCP I told him what a time that I was having and he looked up the address and asked me which location I was going to and I told him and he smiled. "After your finished with your test just walk right into their office and tell them you want a appointment. They are in the same building." I am so happy to hear that. BUT... after I do that I am going to have to go back to the ER. 

 I am not sure if I mentioned it or not but I had to go on Sunday since I was so sick and I already knew that my electrolytes were low since I had seen my doctor on Friday I think it was. With all of the throwing up that I was doing I knew that I was dehydrated and my doctor said yesterday that I am still dehydrated. With only one kidney he said that it is a HUGE concern. When I got home Courtney said that she would take me and I told her that I wanted to wait just a little while. She had a horrible headache and Celeste was throwing up so perhaps there was a little virus going around but she was better after a little while and we cuddled for a little while and I fell asleep.

 I woke up around 3:00 this morning and when Courtney got up she told me that she couldn't wake me up. She said she tried but... I am not surprised. With all the sleep I missed, feeling better one way and my body needing sleep well I guess my body said... Your sleeping and sleep I did lol.

 Anyway I will go and get my fluids and I really hope that all of my tests turn out alright. I will say that I am a little worried and that Procrastination is my middle name. I hate going to the ER for anything but I know that I better go so I will. (If I don't get blown away by this wind.) first.

 My morning coffee is gone and so I need to do the rest of my routine and make my bed and get something for breakfast and pack a few snacks to take with me so I better get off of here. 

 Have a great day everyone... BB 

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